Eric Moritsuka

To Decide or Not To Decide, That’s The Question.

2026-09-04T00:00:00-03:00

Lately, I’ve been feeling exhausted more often than not. I was wondering where this exhaustion came from, and I decided to “investigate” (by “investigate” I mean that I just stopped and started talking to myself to identify what was wrong).

One of my discoveries is that, by working with AI, my life—which was supposed to be easier now—is now harder because I have to do one thing that I don’t care much for: decide things. Uncle Ben said that “with great power comes great responsibility,” and this has never been truer. Just like The Police’s Sting, every prompt we use, every question we ask, AI is watching me. And, what’s even worse, it always comes back with one or more questions or one or more things I have to decide.

You would think AI would make your life easier since it does things for you. But what we all forgot to account for is that AI does things, but it needs you to decide every single little detail until you get from point A to point B. That said, until you get to the end of your task, you have to micro-decide 1,000 different things. How should we call this? Where should we place this? Will we use A or B?

This multitude of madness and questions drains me. I was trained to follow orders and execute tasks just like a well-oiled machine. I wasn’t raised to be a decisive leader; I was raised to be the employee of the month in the colony. That’s part of my nature. I am not cut out to make decision after decision and guide people through hardships and all. Can I do it? Probably. Do I want to? No.

The thing is… AI has changed everything. Even our nature is being affected. Not that it’s changing us (not yet, at least), but it’s forcing us to be and do things that are not natural to us. I can’t be the happy camper anymore. I have to make decisions every day, all day. It feels like pushing YES/NO buttons every day.

I always thought higher positions required that ability. My leaders have to be the ones with the capacity and ability to guide and decide. That’s how it works in organizations. This is probably controversial, but if everybody starts thinking for themselves, we’ll be driven and drowned into chaos. That’s not what we want. I’m not saying we have to be just pawns in a larger game and accept any and everything thrown at us, but we generally have a limit to what we have to decide. But this limit is being pushed further and further. So, the intersection of all those boundary infringements is what is dangerous.

I am not the only one feeling this way. Even people who are much better leaders than I am are feeling it. If those who are used to leading and deciding can’t hold their own, will I be able to? Well… I’ll have to, but I promise I will not enjoy any step of the way.

What is my calling?

2026-06-02T00:00:00-03:00

I am 38 years old. That's almost four decades. Enough time to:

Grow a forest: An acorn can become a towering oak tree.
Carve the Earth: A steady river can visibly alter a canyon wall, or a beach can completely shift its coastline.
Watch the night sky: Halley's Comet can visit Earth, zoom into the deepest corners of the solar system, and make it almost all the way back.
Experience a cellular rebirth: Your body can entirely replace every single one of its cells nearly six times over. You are definitely not the same person your mother brought into this world.

I have seen many things, done many things, visited many places, met many people, and learned a lot. But one thing has always bothered me: I don't think I have ever figured out what my true calling is.

Granted, some people figure things out early on and know exactly what they are supposed to do with their lives, whereas others take a very long time to get there.

For example:

The legendary Alan Rickman only got his first major film break at 42 as Hans Gruber in Die Hard, later capturing generations as Severus Snape in Harry Potter.

The astounding Kathy Bates spent decades in theater before her screen break at 42, playing the unforgettable Annie Wilkes in Misery and winning an Academy Award.

The fantastic Ken Jeong was a practicing physician with an internal medicine residency before he finally got his big comedic break at the age of 38 in Knocked Up.

See, I mention them because I want to tell myself there is still time, even though I know their cases are one in a million and their talent is unique. But we can only hope, right?

I've been an actor. I've been in theater plays where people loved my performances and told me I was very expressive. That led me into all kinds of creative pursuits. I even participated in a stand-up comedy competition once—which I lost. Clearly, I'm not that funny.

And I always thought I would, one day, be a music star. I always dreamed I would be up on stage performing for crowds of people who loved whatever I had to offer them. But the farthest I got was performing in front of a hundred people, maybe, or playing in a marching band in front of enough people to fill a very large avenue.

I've played in bars, squares, museums, schools, studios, graduation parties, and various other venues. I truly wish I could have become a professional musician.

But life can be cruel sometimes. We all grow up, become adults, and discover we have bills to pay. Getting a "real" job pretty much kills many of our dreams. We work, and we don't have time for much else. Then you start a family, and you have even less time. By the time you stop to realize it, you are older, your hair is gone, and you have a large belly instead of big dreams.

I always wondered if music was really my calling. If it was, wouldn't I be doing something about it? I know people say it's never too late, and it really isn't. The question is... do I have the energy to make it happen this far in life? I look at my guitar, and we both wonder. Me, I feel tired all the time, and I think the guitar feels the same way sometimes. At least, it sounds like it.

Maybe it's just melancholy.

Excuse me, what do you do?

2026-05-11T00:00:00-03:00

I’ve been thinking about my job a lot lately. I’m a mid-level Technical Writer at a U.S.-based software company with an office in Recife, which is where I live. Honestly, I’ve been questioning what I do—whether it’s still relevant or if it’s finally time to find something else. Maybe I should just sell handcrafted goods at the beach. I don’t know.

This question is always on my mind because, believe it or not, the topic even comes up when I’m just hanging out with my friends.

We play board games every other Friday, and every once in a while, I have to teach them a new one. To do that, I read the manual first and then explain the rules to the group. They always claim they can’t understand me and tell me I should explain it better. Sure, they’re usually all trying to talk over one another, but according to them, I’m the issue. To which I always respond, “If only that were my job.”

¯\(ツ)/¯

And you know what? It is (well… kind of…)!

But sometimes, even I don’t know exactly what my job entails—and I’m pretty sure other people don’t, either. Do I write? Do I test? Do I “own” the product? Do I talk to developers or other stakeholders? Do I draw diagrams, edit images, find and report bugs, or review other people’s work? The answer is usually: all of the above and more.

To my family and non-work friends, I simply say I work for a multinational software company and write the manuals for its products. It’s not 100% accurate, but it’s close enough.

To my colleagues at the office who aren’t on my direct team, I explain that I handle the technical documentation for the features they develop. In the process, I have to test those features to ensure they’re working; if they aren’t, I report the bugs to improve the product. It sounds important (and it is).

I imagine everyone else thinks I just… write… technical stuff. It’s in the title, right? Technical Writer.

That worries me. I can picture people thinking, “Well, anyone can do that. AI can replace them. We just give it commands and context, and it provides us with a well-written, organized, and methodical text.”

But do you know the funniest part? Writing is only 10% of the job. I’m just not sure people understand that. In reality, we:

Collaborate: We talk to everyone across the organization.
Engineer: We write code and test features to see how they actually behave.
Investigate: We ask the hard questions and help improve the product from the inside out.
Design: We create diagrams and edit images.
Curate: We wordsmith material and ensure everything stays up to date.
Solve: We listen to stakeholders who bring us problems that need fixing.

And we don’t do this for just one or two teams with a limited scope. We do it for multiple teams simultaneously, switching contexts every hour—sometimes even more frequently. We have to remember everything, know where the “bodies are buried,” and find information instantly, all while maintaining a rigid attention to detail and perfect consistency.

So, whenever I’m strolling through the office, heading to the restroom, or grabbing a drink at the water cooler, I’m not just “taking a break.” I’m calculating the what, how, where, and when of the documentation swirling around my head. Meanwhile, I’m trying to keep the emotions in my brain from going into total overdrive, like a scene straight out of Inside Out.

Yep, it’s definitely not easy being a technical writer.

Hello, World!

2026-04-25T00:00:00-03:00

I was browsing my boss’s personal site this week, and it was so inspiring that I remembered I had one, too. When I checked it, I discovered it hadn’t been updated since last year! Even worse, the portfolio section hadn’t been touched since I was hired at my current job.

That realization brought me to this point. I decided it was time to update my information and my portfolio, but then I realized I hadn’t produced much personal work over the past couple of years.

It’s time for a personal project, right? I figured I should start writing again—which only makes sense, considering “Writer” is in my job title. I wanted to find something that wasn’t overly time-consuming but would allow me to create using my existing skills (now powered by AI, which wasn’t nearly as prominent when I first started) while getting back into the habit of writing.

Hence, this blog page! Let’s see where this goes.